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Mood swings

I try very very hard to be understanding, but, there are times that my oldest son’s moodiness drives me insane!!
Sits, head down, won’t look at anyone, won’t take part in conversation, won’t even say what he wants or if he wants to eat. But, yet, if I ask him what’s wrong, he tells me, ‘Nothing.’ And I cannot get him to talk at all. Especially when 30 minutes before, he was exact opposite – talking, laughing, joking….

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My “dream” vacation

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This really struck a chord with me. I’ve been kind of down the past few weeks because my siblings were planning and invited me on what was my ‘dream vacation’. One I’ve talked about wanted to do with my boys since they were babies. And now, we can’t.
My dream vacation was to relive an annual trip I made with my dad into the Boundary Waters Canoe Area in northern Minnesota. We would pack up the pick up, drive many miles down a dirt road, until we got to a certain river.  Then we’d unload the truck and carefully pack it all into the canoe and take off, knowing there’d be a portage ahead of us.  We’d finally make it to the lake, where we’d continue paddling until we got to the spot he wanted to camp. I say “he wanted to camp” because by the time we’d get to the lake, I’d be so tired of paddling and being in the canoe that the first spot looked perfect to me! It was as rustic of a camping trip as you can make.  No motors or anything allowed.  Everything you packed in, you had to pack back out.  We would fish, cook over the campfire, make s’mores all weekend, then load up and paddle back to the pick up, where I’d sleep the entire drive home. A trip my camping/hunting/fishing boys would have absolutely loved!  But, not a trip for a wheelchair or a toddler. So, therefore, no longer a trip for us.

I have got to quit being bummed about this and find something that we Can do.  Who knows? Maybe someday that trip will be possible, but, for now, it’s not doing anyone any good for me to sit around pouting because we can’t.

By the way, my older siblings have decided against that trip and are now renting a lake house for a weekend.  We still aren’t going, too many miles away right in the middle of one of my busiest months of the year. Plus, none of them have little ones – their kids are all adult, most with kids of their own, and it really hasn’t sounded like little ones were included in the invitation to join them.

Frustrating!

I don’t know what’s going on, but, my oldest son is going through another of his grumpy stages.  He’s not too bad in the mornings, but, by afternoon, it’s obvious something is bothering him, but, he just says Nothing.

He’s also refusing to eat what is cooked for meals!  Or, at least, not eating when the rest of us eat.  Eventually, he will finally decide to eat, after changing his mind several times, even after whatever he asked for is being fixed.  The meal thing is really going to drive me crazy.  When he changes his mind, his tone is like he’s mad at whoever is fixing something for him, “Why are you warming up lasagna?”  “Because you just said you wanted it!”  “No, I don’t! I’m not even hungry.”

Is this day over yet?

Today has felt like several days rolled into one. Very long, very busy, but really don’t feel like I have actually accomplished anything but cleaning up pee. All day. Munchkin managed to go through every pair of panties she has. This morning, I thought, ‘yay! I don’t have to wash the oldest’s bedding!’ But, then, he took a nap this afternoon. And our stupid male dogs have recently started marking territory in the house! This new development with them is really ticking me off!
On the lighter side, munchkin is so silly!  Today, she came up to me and informed me that she wants to try on the glass slipper. She hasn’t watched Cinderella in a few days. A few days ago, she asked the oldest’s girlfriend for milk ‘with chocolate and strawberry’ then, got upset because she used a spoon to stir it. Munchkin likes her milk shaken, not stirred!
Here’s some shots from today that I liked.

Well, I was going to post some photos, but, they won’t upload!  Maybe tomorrow. 🙂

Anniversary of the Worst Day Ever

3 years ago today, about this time, I received the phone call that changed our lives forever.

3 years, yet right now, I am fighting tears.  Why does the date make a difference?

He’s here.  I was just talking to him.  I should not be feeling so sad!

So what if the doctors told us “We’ll know in a year how full his recovery is.  What he has in a year is it.”  They were Wrong!!!  He’s shown improvement in areas well past the first year.  He is still improving!!!  He’s now on the treadmill daily, 6 months ago, a treadmill was out of the question!

My emotions are so all over the place right now, I don’t even know what to write.  I need to just get busy and get my mind occupied.